The Lay of Thrym.

everytime I hear to this song,(I usually get these kind of feeling when hearing Tyr's songs) I will get this war spirit, and singing it all manly as if I have a long braided beard and have been working with axes and swords and my body as if full with scars and people would just want to sit near me around the fire and hear my experience story....

........

I had always wanted to be in the early years where people fight wars with strength and blood, with swords and axes, where black and white lies are just something you could tear and burn, where both man and woman are manly and strong, where people fight for their rights, not just shouting out what they want but do nothing.

well, I really hope men nowadays would grow beard and braid it.... braided beards are cool....
anyway, whee I really like this song, possibly because I had always put myself among the citizens when I'm imagining living in  those viking age. for me, the power is in the people's hand. they are the warriors, they are the one who can build great nation, and they are the one who make the ruler powerful. and the power is with them, to bring justice to greedy tyrant.

♪~"you stand only for your own, any man may throw you off the throne, seat will not be set for thee, at the league of free nation"~♪

I don't mind suddenly singing this at school when disagree about anyone's idea xD
"may this mark the end of your reign!" xD people will get mad at me for sure.

anyway, leave no tyrant out there undettered♪

Take your tyrant

we have heard of the war in Syria.
I'm feeling very sad hearing my brothers and sisters there are slaughtered and butchered without mercy.
the elders and the youngs, all of them.

even if you're not a muslim, if you have humanity, you will cry.

I am very sad that other Islam country doesn't aid army to them. with reason to protect our own country....
I'm living in a country which the majorities are muslim. I'm feeling that most of us have drowned in the world's limited promises that we no longer appreciate what our fathers have fought for us, back in the Islamic history.

seeing young kids, who might have bright future, who might make the world a better place, is slaughtered, as if they means nothing....

I saw a video which shows the firing that took place in Syria.
it sounded very scary. as if thousands of fireworks...
I wonder how the people are living their days there.

sometimes I just say to myself, if only Malaysia wants to aid an army to help, and is taking volunteer, if I were given practices, I think I would join it.
I had always reading histories and imagine myself fighting for what is correct.
if time come, I will only able to pray to God so that He'll give me strength to do it.

this is the month of Ramadhan, I really hope you could pray for the safety of people in Syria who fight for their freedom. no matter who is your God.
at any time, just make a simple prayers.
that is at least we could do. we are commoners, but we have the ability to pray.
praying is our power.

anyway, I just remembered of TYR's song

 

and it really suits the situation there.
they Syrians' who are fighting for their freedom are strong! from the elders and to the youngs, all of them.

community

I was born in an average family, since I was a still a child [I'm still young now, but this was younger xD] I had always have this dislikes about buying expensive things, I just disagree with.

I do have some interest on having them sometimes,...its normal thing, everyone want to have what everyone have right?
but I have been teaching myself not to have things that most of the people have.
[sorry my English just worsen day by day. T^T]
I keep telling myself "expensive things are too mainstream. I'll go to crafts". xD

I don't even have a phone, I am 16. maybe you'll be saying 16 is still young to have a phone, but this is the new generation, most of the people have phone and rarely use public phones and all. most of the people talk a lot nowadays too. a phone is now a basic needs. at least that is what they say... some more, with more people having phone, the public phones are usually vandalized and not immediately repaired.

I usually talk to myself, that's why I can survive without phone.... I'm still young I don't need those technology!
and I rarely goes out of my house.

most of my school friends are rich and able to afford all those expensive things. sometimes they frown about not having cool gadgets and all. rich people's problem.

some of them get expensive things when they got good results in exam, I know I'm showing jealousy here xD
I am the last child of my family, and all my brothers are grown-ups, they are far older than me, and my family is unable to afford anything other than our needs. that is why I don't get anything I want, plus with being the last child of the family, they don't care whether you get good grades or not anymore xD

I feel like slapping people who is ungrateful for what they have.

just that the people around me keep on talking about wanting expensive things....I'm feeling really uncomfortable seeing that they had already have expensive things with them.
not that I'm saying it's unfair, just that....please be grateful of what you have, there is no need to tell everyone about what you want and what you have, comparing your wealth with other people...
no kiddin...

but I realised that it is normal among teenagers,
they have the tendency to show things off to obtain people's attention. it is very normal, and they are still young too~
I am not sure this among the adults, maybe one day I'll find out ^-^

but there are some kind of teenagers that want to be accepted in the mainstream that they act exactly to what the community want.
please, stay away from the mainstream.
like the term of 'thinking out of the box', I'm re-adapting it.
the mainstream [anything the most of the community likes] is the box that prevent people from going beyond it and be themselves. get out from it, and be your self. everyone have their own personality.

you probably have heard of the "90 kids will remember this", "90 kids are cool", it's not that I want to complain about it [since I heard that I am not from that group of people], no way.
it's just that, I find that only the adult is able to understand the teenagers completely.

I joined this school organisation which is same with prefect, just that prefect is to correct the student's discipline, while this organisation I'm in is to help the students who have problems. problems that they don;t want to share with the elders.
this helpers are suppose to hear their problems, we are not to fully give them solutions, but we have to make them re-think about their problems and make positive out of it.
so, teenagers are more comfortable telling problems to people about their age maybe because of their same level of maturity.
but I notice that only the adults are able to completely understand and help the teenagers.
this is because of the different levels of experience and maturity.
I could say that only maturity is able to withstand immaturity. this is my opinion.

that is why I disagree hearing teenagers saying that their parents doesn't know what they want.
they might not understand what you want, but they sure know what is the best for you. they have been taking care of you since you're still an infant, and they might also add their experience from their own childhood.

but I find that some adults, instead of acting like an adult, they keep saying these teenagers are worthless, this generation is in a big mess and all. they keep complaining instead of thinking ways to correct what is wrong.
some of them might be working hard helping people and have a warm heart. I really hope most of them do.
we should tolerate with each other. teenagers and adults...

anyway, I had always wanted a normal digital camera so that I could capture anything beautiful I've seen.
but I am only able to keep those beautiful scenes in my mind. xD
but it's a good thing right? remembering memories make us humble all the time~

sorry if I've said anything wrong, please correct me and teach me~

yes, learning to let things go, is a part of loving.

the news was posted on Kamijo World today. yes. apart of being happy about the Vampire Master's birthday, all of the fans are shocked and sad to hear about the news.

we tried to make ourselves relieved by saying possibilities of hacking. for me, I said it might be a birthday prank.

but, an International fan base contacted the office. it is said that the news is true.

so they concluded that the news is supposed to be posted on the 20th, since it is dated to that date.

Versailles will be on hiatus by the end of 2012, after releasing their album.

at first, in confusions, all of us are scared if they're disbanding.
a bit relief that they will only be on hiatus.

sorry that I sounds like freaking out a lot....
it is just that....
I finally learn to love them properly....
I had never expect to see them leaving the industry...

even after seeing them working very hard after Jasmine's death, that just made me have faith in them....
I know that they won't suddenly leave...

maybe they want to have new experience, from outside Versailles, so that they could solidify their dream to dominate the world by greater plans.

I am a bit scared, to think that some of good bands took hiatus but end up disbanding at the end.
but I know, the little faith in me said that they won't be disbanding.
they still haven't fulfilled their goal.

I'm just... shocked... I had never expect this to happen, either hiatus or breaking up.
they have a very bright future. and they almost fulfill their dream too.

but I still agree of them taking some rest.
I notice that after Jasmine's death, they have been working very hard.

I hope that will eventually make me stronger.
they had taught me about beauty and love.

and I has met a lot of people who is also in love with them.
all of them are wonderful and have beautiful heart.
these fans, whether I know them or not, gave me faith, and I believe, their hearts are pure and filled with love.

if you ask me, I had never met a Rose who is very rude and act badly. maybe I haven't met a lot of Roses yet. but all of the Roses I've met have beautiful hearts. all of them are lovely and kind. as if a big family....

anyway, Versailles had taught me another important thing.
which is to let something we love go.
and be mature about it.

Elegant.

lately I am interested towards Elegant influenced by Jasmine You.
I just.... it looks very pretty to me TvT

so, after about more than 2 years being a fan to the visual kei industry, this is the most elegant people I've met and I really wish they could join up and make a project band or have tea party together wearing their elegant costumes TvT

I really like the art they carry~

I didn't bring up the whole Versailles since Kamijo is more to Prince-like or vampire master. Hizaki is more to beautiful lolita, so does Kaya~ while Yuki is like the darkness master, and Masashi is more to dark guardian. Teru, is a forever young prince....he sometimes looks like Jasmine's son and Jasmine sometimes look like Teru's mother xD
It seems to me that Jasmine was like an elegant sorcerer~ I really like his costumes and  everything...he really brings it perfectly TvT  he inspires me a lot~

and the next one is a mysterious man that I knew last year.
I am startled [am I using the word correctly? xD] by his beauty.
His image is very magnificent and creative. For the first time in my life I said "there exist such people in this world?! ...and... a man?!"
but his costume is more to acceptable, not too theatrical like Jasmine's... just his super elegant makeup. 

well, that is the first picture of him that makes me know his existence.
and then, I saw his old picture...

whoaa... I cannot.... but how...

and then, I saw this one...

HOW.
He do have a glittering face. he have beautiful nose too.... since I don't have nice looking nose...
his skin is very fair. I saw a picture of him with light blonde hair and no make up on, as if he have albino problem....

anyway, the last one~

YES. the whole band is elegant.
their costumes are very theatrical, like Jasmine You~
I am very excited knowing them xD

their costumes are very admirable TvT

so far, this is my [Elegant People] list. xD

was suppose to update this post last night, but as I was uploading picture, this happen instead...

but somewhat look beautiful right? XD

5 years of Versailles.

I may no know Jasmine from the time of his life,
but I know very well that he had left true love to this world.

Versailles keep on growing to be my ideal band from time to time,
and now is already 5 years...
I knew them back in 2010, when hearing to Destiny~the Lovers~,
ahh~ that is the song that changes my point of view towards music, towards esthetics, and makes me love history even more~

even that I knew them for a short time,
I've learn a lot from them...
they've taught about love, about real music, about not being a stereotype....
and how look can be deceiving xD

yes, most of all they've taught me about how love can change the world.
even that I know them after Jasmine You's death,
I can tell that they have resuscitated, and became better day by day...
as if sadness gave birth to a better person.

and counting the days I knew them, I know that I tend to love Jasmine more and more even that I had never get the chance to know him when he's still in this world....
Versailles's musics are warm when its about Jasmine, that's how I learn that they love Jasmine and that's how I learn that Jasmine had left them nothing but love and memories.

I heard once that Kamijo once cried of black tears [mascara/eyeliner] when talking about Jasmine.
only by reading the article I feel like crying, I cannot see a man cry because of his friendship.
it just makes me,...want to cry along...with mascara...ok..no...

anyway~ I raised myself by throwing away hatred and making sure I'm not stained by it.
I try to love everyone because I know everyone deserves it.
even the problem maker becomes a problem maker because they're lack of love.
I may not be able to be there and help just everyone who is in need...
but I will keep on trying and work hard for my future so that I could reach my love to those out there.

one might say that they don't need my love, but I don't care!
everyone needs love...they might not need it now but no one ever knows future. xD

p/s ROSE single is suppose to be released early June if I'm not mistaken, but it was delayed, I guess I understand now why it was delayed xD

the drawing in yesterday

I have been looking through my drawings which was drawn when I'm still in standard 6 and till this day.
I saw a great difference in it...
it was as if, my yesterday is giving me inspiration,....
it makes me question myself,
"who am I when I was drawing this?"
"how am I able to draw this creative and colourful drawings?"
"why I feel like I am left behind by my own yesterday?"

it really makes me wonder, who am I yesterday...
the differences are very great that I felt I might not be able to create such thing in the future.
it might not be too great to other people, but that is my level....

I just feel now that it seems impossible to achieve what I once achieve...
as if inspiration were gift to those who still have immaturity...

it is not showing off but, if you go through it yourself, you will understand what I meant...

it was as if the me in yesterday and the me today is two different person,
that is how great the differences were....
as if we were departed....
I cant even remember things from when I drew it xD

Angels.

I talked about the aid of Angels in the Muslim war with my brother when watching LOTR.
apparently my brother just got a super HD version, and watching on his super wide monitor makes the graphic looks super cool. Faramir is very handsome indeed. and Aragorn too. somehow Gandalf look very young and Frodo....ohh Frodo have as white as snow skin...haha what a graphic....

but no. I am not talking about that.
about the angels, my brother said they join the war, in the form of man.
he said that the muslim army, when at war suddenly notice the number increased with the unity of unknown men.
I imagined that, the angels, came in form of fine man, in white armor, riding white horse....
it is very subtle...

how I wish I was there, fighting for my religion, along with the faithful men, and the angels....

how I wish too,
to see Adam, the man who is made by the hand of God himself...
and Joseph, who is said to possess half the beauty..[beauty of either of the world or of Adam]...

I am a normal human I guess.
no human rejects beauty....
we are anxious creature, we want to know things...
but sometimes we just didn't realize,
that some things are just beyond our reach.

these days, I feel a peace in my heart, I am unsure of it but I could feel the presence of God....
I realize now to whom shall I rely on...

I guess, I will have to study more,
if I want to be in love...

hello

I was thinking of getting up my 'falsememory' label up back, with a whole new image,
but of course, all of the labels sounds very badass I will try to change it in time. xD
since I will be having a quite long holidays after exam,
I will try to change the layout too since it looks suppper badass orz
doesnt matter~

well actually I do post updates on my another blog [which was a Japanese blog] but not that I know Japanese, I even rarely update there //run

I was thinking to share some of my sims house creation, not that I have done a good job just that if we don't share how are we gonna get better right? xD
it's not so good but no worries I just want to share it so no biggies~

 

time travel anyone?

currently I am playing Sims 3 with expansion pack of Ambitions and Pets. I may be posting of Medieval, but currently I only able to play Sims 3.

but anyways,

!!! Kaya!!!
have you watch SALOME preview? I want to cry orz why is he so pretty....
i love you kaya ;w;

Arabian Kaya......
me want to forever cry ♥;w;♥

you know you're hearing to a good performer when you don't want their song in your playlist to finish.

I would like to be known as 'that poetic fella who smash on grammar'.

seriously, my grammar is very bad..

Visual Kei is not a blood-line specialization; it is a music system.

do I hit this? XD well the usage of words are kinda....weird....
I mean, everyone can do visual kei music, if they follow the system.
They doesn't need to be Japanese.
Visual kei is a music system. but yes, majority who follows this, are Japanese.
but there are no wrongs for non-Japanese.

I am saying here, I will hear to a band if they creates good musics.
I don't object if other country wants to call them a visual kei band.
if they're as good as the usual, they are welcomed.

but then, I also don't really look to the appearance they brought.
even if they looks like mid-age guys playing instruments and singing, as long as their creations are good, those bad appearance would seem invisible.

yes of course it is a bonus if they creates good music and are good looking.
but it is a pain if they only joins bands just to have the 'special looks' in them.

I really want to see, in this fast-paced breathing age, which musician actually creates music, because of the music itself.

I am kinda pissed off with some musician nowadays, just because fans free downloaded your works, doesn't mean they never would buy any of your works.

if you really worth it, they will buy it. Its just that now, people are being much more cautious on spending their money. They need to know that what they're about to buy, is musics, or shits.

Like I said, if your music is worth be called a music, you shouldn't be worry of pirated/free downloading.
to the good point, at least this doings are helping you to get more worldwide. Shippings are fucking expensive.
plus, with some of bands keeps on releasing things like, one song at a time with the same payments as the normal singles, what, you think all human race are fcking gold miner? and you expect people to buy everything?

you don't even creates good ones!

or are you actually worried about your future?
doing poor in school, plus with people doesn't buy your entire discography, regretting again for not doing your best and get good grades back in school with thoughts you might be doing good in music.....

what are you taking music as?

some real musician drops off school.
do you know why? I don't think you know, but here, they drops off school because they're not academic person even they had worked hard for it.
they're just not academic person. but they are for sure passionate and have talent [or practiced talent] for music.


have you worked hard with studies before choosing your path?
have you actually think about future when you're still studying in school?

don't you ever taking in music as something very easy. real musicians are bunch of brilliant people.
they might not doing good with academic, they might not understand a thing about what you study in school, but what they understand, you won't be able to understand.

just look at the music industries now.
do you see good musicians in them?
can be hardly spotted dude!

If I am a musician, I don't care of my works get free downloaded, I might myself, makes a free song available for download.

its just that, if more songs gets free downloaded, real music could actually live on even though not well known by the community now.

your works get free downloaded, not get plagiarized.
you can go fire up all your oil tanks if your works got plagiarized.
you can even get support from people all over the world if it's about plagiarism.

free downloading is something else. it is still your song. how on earth you think your song gets free downloaded, if at the first place no one ever bought it?

I am just fking pissed off here.
if its actually about money, then go work in other career.
go help the people, help those who is in need.
or just go fking mines your own gold mine.


[I am sorry for the harsh words,typos,and long post.]

scent.

I just noticed something today,
a real feminine female have her own sweet scent.
I mean, even that she wears only little of perfume, [or any other kind that smells good] the scent of it will stays with her for a long time, and actually makes it kinda softer and more sweeter and makes you comfortable just by smelling it.

well this is just something by my consciousness, still not sure of it too.
noticed at school today xD

ok gaise.

you can say I'm in trouble, or just simply from future.
kidding.

remember I posted a post about AOI deleting twitter?  [here]
well I was mentioning about what if RUKA stops tweeting.
well then few weeks ago he did said he wants to stop tweeting, for reason he wants to pay attention to his mobile blog.

why not?
such things has happened to me few times,
I should be taking care for what I'm saying and doing...
it might effect the future actually.

or maybe those who were from my 79-club have less interest in tweeting, like Nakama Yukie, if I'm not mistaken she doesn't tweet.

the number of typos and grammatical error in this blog is...

TOO DAMN HIGH

and no one to help repairing it. ||okay||

sorry for it too, since I don't really spend much time repairing typos and errors.

I wish this 2012, a new light will emerge in a bright presentation.

Yui - My Generation from GomunoMusic on Vimeo.


I'm making this song as the song of the year,

  "Sixteen My Dream"

it has changed the life of many people, this age.
some were successful, some didn't manage to get through it perfectly, and some, go through it normally.

I wish, for a better personality,
for a better knowledge,
and a better patience.

I may be young, but everyone once does.

and for the future mistakes I'll be doing,
forgive me.
teach me.
and correct me.

with patience.
for I am just a kid.

for respect shall I have.
and too, shall I give.

I hope I found the road to the future.
in this very year.
will I be or will I not be a great person,
is still a question that needs a definite answer.

hope this very year, will lead you on doing a better productive things, and eventually recreates the world.

sometimes I wish I could be very tall, so that I could protect people around me.

some people are able to remember, some are not.

I am the part from which is not able to remember things perfectly.
but I am able to accept history even that it is a pain to remember it. XD
I can't even remember days,dates[especially this],and even time[newly adapted skill XD].
these were numbers, not good with it.
even my birthday, I forgot. [Yoda style, typing English]

let me deal with this for once.

do you know it is hard to be tough? even to act as one.
but it is positive, to have toughness, to have patience,..
it is beautiful.
this makes you stronger. and eventually makes you mature.
everyone will need to go through hard times, it is something that is measured to suits you,
the measurement might from the lowest and highest, but to any point it is, you actually can handle it.
people need to go through hard times,
so life will be easier.
of course, things will be much harder after that,
but life is like a game, things get harder because you just level up.
but you still could finish the whole game, it's your choice whether to play fair or using cheats.


I am having hard times now....