talking about my descendants and Malay history and all the possibilities that would emerge when saying that the Malays are voyagers, back in the early centuries.
these kind of things are what drives me into choosing archeology.
for me, history is pure knowledge.
you study the past all the time.
it is the only way how world works; past to be learned, future to be guessed.
Monday, October 8, 2012
Tuesday, September 4, 2012
The Lay of Thrym.
everytime I hear to this song,(I usually get these kind of feeling when hearing Tyr's songs) I will get this war spirit, and singing it all manly as if I have a long braided beard and have been working with axes and swords and my body as if full with scars and people would just want to sit near me around the fire and hear my experience story....
........
I had always wanted to be in the early years where people fight wars with strength and blood, with swords and axes, where black and white lies are just something you could tear and burn, where both man and woman are manly and strong, where people fight for their rights, not just shouting out what they want but do nothing.
well, I really hope men nowadays would grow beard and braid it.... braided beards are cool....
anyway, whee I really like this song, possibly because I had always put myself among the citizens when I'm imagining living in those viking age. for me, the power is in the people's hand. they are the warriors, they are the one who can build great nation, and they are the one who make the ruler powerful. and the power is with them, to bring justice to greedy tyrant.
♪~"you stand only for your own, any man may throw you off the throne, seat will not be set for thee, at the league of free nation"~♪
I don't mind suddenly singing this at school when disagree about anyone's idea xD
"may this mark the end of your reign!" xD people will get mad at me for sure.
anyway, leave no tyrant out there undettered♪
Friday, August 24, 2012
Tuesday, August 14, 2012
3 best songs that should be heard one after another.
1) S - Fanreta
I just like this song, it sounds very light and easy~
2) MANNEQUIN - Moon the Kerberos
in my understanding, Kerberos is the pet [hound with three head] of Hades [God of the Underworld] in Greek's mythology. well....nice play. xD
3) Mystic Moon - Solitude
hard to sing this song with old school voice xD
anyway,
yyyeaahh old school bands are awesome.
I just like this song, it sounds very light and easy~
2) MANNEQUIN - Moon the Kerberos
in my understanding, Kerberos is the pet [hound with three head] of Hades [God of the Underworld] in Greek's mythology. well....nice play. xD
3) Mystic Moon - Solitude
hard to sing this song with old school voice xD
anyway,
yyyeaahh old school bands are awesome.
Thursday, August 9, 2012
9 August : Memorial of Jasmine You
it has been three years after the last 9 August when Versailles lost Jasmine.
until now, the cause of his death is not told. that is what I strongly believe.
as I keep saying in the previous posts, I had never got the chance to know him in his life.
but I could feel the love he had once brought through the song the band created which was dedicated to him.
I realise that Jasmine is a very gentle and kind person when I hear his talking style, he is so graceful...
anyway,
I believe Serenade was dedicated to Jasmine You since it was release after his death.
Remember Forever....I just assume it was for Jasmine~ I'll never know it is for him xD
Love will be born again. I am quite shocked with Kamijo's english, not so bad. still could make me cry. xD
I'm all teary at -"can you see the tears flowing from your eyes, when your soul leaves your body. so you were outside by this time."-
Sympathia. it was written with the presence of Jasmine You, but the lyrics is so beautiful and, I cried when hearing to this song and thinking of Jasmine at the same time~
with Jasmine You~
with Masashi~
the lyric,
輝く光の向こうで僕を見て手振る
貴女の後を追いかけ
腕を掴みかけたぞの瞬間
消えてしまう
which possibly means.
" on the other side of this glittering lake, you saw me and wave your hand.
so I chase after you, and the moment I grab your hand, you disappear"
it is very lucid~ as if you dreamed of someone you've lost~
and, this one was made by TERU for Jasmine's memorial last year~ Teru is a sweetheart~
anyway, lets remember the elegancy he shown to us~
Saturday, July 28, 2012
Take your tyrant
we have heard of the war in Syria.
I'm feeling very sad hearing my brothers and sisters there are slaughtered and butchered without mercy.
the elders and the youngs, all of them.
even if you're not a muslim, if you have humanity, you will cry.
I am very sad that other Islam country doesn't aid army to them. with reason to protect our own country....
I'm living in a country which the majorities are muslim. I'm feeling that most of us have drowned in the world's limited promises that we no longer appreciate what our fathers have fought for us, back in the Islamic history.
seeing young kids, who might have bright future, who might make the world a better place, is slaughtered, as if they means nothing....
I saw a video which shows the firing that took place in Syria.
it sounded very scary. as if thousands of fireworks...
I wonder how the people are living their days there.
sometimes I just say to myself, if only Malaysia wants to aid an army to help, and is taking volunteer, if I were given practices, I think I would join it.
I had always reading histories and imagine myself fighting for what is correct.
if time come, I will only able to pray to God so that He'll give me strength to do it.
this is the month of Ramadhan, I really hope you could pray for the safety of people in Syria who fight for their freedom. no matter who is your God.
at any time, just make a simple prayers.
that is at least we could do. we are commoners, but we have the ability to pray.
praying is our power.
anyway, I just remembered of TYR's song
and it really suits the situation there.
they Syrians' who are fighting for their freedom are strong! from the elders and to the youngs, all of them.
I'm feeling very sad hearing my brothers and sisters there are slaughtered and butchered without mercy.
the elders and the youngs, all of them.
even if you're not a muslim, if you have humanity, you will cry.
I am very sad that other Islam country doesn't aid army to them. with reason to protect our own country....
I'm living in a country which the majorities are muslim. I'm feeling that most of us have drowned in the world's limited promises that we no longer appreciate what our fathers have fought for us, back in the Islamic history.
seeing young kids, who might have bright future, who might make the world a better place, is slaughtered, as if they means nothing....
I saw a video which shows the firing that took place in Syria.
it sounded very scary. as if thousands of fireworks...
I wonder how the people are living their days there.
sometimes I just say to myself, if only Malaysia wants to aid an army to help, and is taking volunteer, if I were given practices, I think I would join it.
I had always reading histories and imagine myself fighting for what is correct.
if time come, I will only able to pray to God so that He'll give me strength to do it.
this is the month of Ramadhan, I really hope you could pray for the safety of people in Syria who fight for their freedom. no matter who is your God.
at any time, just make a simple prayers.
that is at least we could do. we are commoners, but we have the ability to pray.
praying is our power.
anyway, I just remembered of TYR's song
and it really suits the situation there.
they Syrians' who are fighting for their freedom are strong! from the elders and to the youngs, all of them.
community
I was born in an average family, since I was a still a child [I'm still young now, but this was younger xD] I had always have this dislikes about buying expensive things, I just disagree with.
I do have some interest on having them sometimes,...its normal thing, everyone want to have what everyone have right?
but I have been teaching myself not to have things that most of the people have.
[sorry my English just worsen day by day. T^T]
I keep telling myself "expensive things are too mainstream. I'll go to crafts". xD
I don't even have a phone, I am 16. maybe you'll be saying 16 is still young to have a phone, but this is the new generation, most of the people have phone and rarely use public phones and all. most of the people talk a lot nowadays too. a phone is now a basic needs. at least that is what they say... some more, with more people having phone, the public phones are usually vandalized and not immediately repaired.
I usually talk to myself, that's why I can survive without phone.... I'm still young I don't need those technology!
and I rarely goes out of my house.
most of my school friends are rich and able to afford all those expensive things. sometimes they frown about not having cool gadgets and all. rich people's problem.
some of them get expensive things when they got good results in exam, I know I'm showing jealousy here xD
I am the last child of my family, and all my brothers are grown-ups, they are far older than me, and my family is unable to afford anything other than our needs. that is why I don't get anything I want, plus with being the last child of the family, they don't care whether you get good grades or not anymore xD
I feel like slapping people who is ungrateful for what they have.
just that the people around me keep on talking about wanting expensive things....I'm feeling really uncomfortable seeing that they had already have expensive things with them.
not that I'm saying it's unfair, just that....please be grateful of what you have, there is no need to tell everyone about what you want and what you have, comparing your wealth with other people...
no kiddin...
but I realised that it is normal among teenagers,
they have the tendency to show things off to obtain people's attention. it is very normal, and they are still young too~
I am not sure this among the adults, maybe one day I'll find out ^-^
but there are some kind of teenagers that want to be accepted in the mainstream that they act exactly to what the community want.
please, stay away from the mainstream.
like the term of 'thinking out of the box', I'm re-adapting it.
the mainstream [anything the most of the community likes] is the box that prevent people from going beyond it and be themselves. get out from it, and be your self. everyone have their own personality.
you probably have heard of the "90 kids will remember this", "90 kids are cool", it's not that I want to complain about it [since I heard that I am not from that group of people], no way.
it's just that, I find that only the adult is able to understand the teenagers completely.
I joined this school organisation which is same with prefect, just that prefect is to correct the student's discipline, while this organisation I'm in is to help the students who have problems. problems that they don;t want to share with the elders.
this helpers are suppose to hear their problems, we are not to fully give them solutions, but we have to make them re-think about their problems and make positive out of it.
so, teenagers are more comfortable telling problems to people about their age maybe because of their same level of maturity.
but I notice that only the adults are able to completely understand and help the teenagers.
this is because of the different levels of experience and maturity.
I could say that only maturity is able to withstand immaturity. this is my opinion.
that is why I disagree hearing teenagers saying that their parents doesn't know what they want.
they might not understand what you want, but they sure know what is the best for you. they have been taking care of you since you're still an infant, and they might also add their experience from their own childhood.
but I find that some adults, instead of acting like an adult, they keep saying these teenagers are worthless, this generation is in a big mess and all. they keep complaining instead of thinking ways to correct what is wrong.
some of them might be working hard helping people and have a warm heart. I really hope most of them do.
we should tolerate with each other. teenagers and adults...
anyway, I had always wanted a normal digital camera so that I could capture anything beautiful I've seen.
but I am only able to keep those beautiful scenes in my mind. xD
but it's a good thing right? remembering memories make us humble all the time~
sorry if I've said anything wrong, please correct me and teach me~
I do have some interest on having them sometimes,...its normal thing, everyone want to have what everyone have right?
but I have been teaching myself not to have things that most of the people have.
[sorry my English just worsen day by day. T^T]
I keep telling myself "expensive things are too mainstream. I'll go to crafts". xD
I don't even have a phone, I am 16. maybe you'll be saying 16 is still young to have a phone, but this is the new generation, most of the people have phone and rarely use public phones and all. most of the people talk a lot nowadays too. a phone is now a basic needs. at least that is what they say... some more, with more people having phone, the public phones are usually vandalized and not immediately repaired.
I usually talk to myself, that's why I can survive without phone.... I'm still young I don't need those technology!
and I rarely goes out of my house.
most of my school friends are rich and able to afford all those expensive things. sometimes they frown about not having cool gadgets and all. rich people's problem.
some of them get expensive things when they got good results in exam, I know I'm showing jealousy here xD
I am the last child of my family, and all my brothers are grown-ups, they are far older than me, and my family is unable to afford anything other than our needs. that is why I don't get anything I want, plus with being the last child of the family, they don't care whether you get good grades or not anymore xD
I feel like slapping people who is ungrateful for what they have.
just that the people around me keep on talking about wanting expensive things....I'm feeling really uncomfortable seeing that they had already have expensive things with them.
not that I'm saying it's unfair, just that....please be grateful of what you have, there is no need to tell everyone about what you want and what you have, comparing your wealth with other people...
no kiddin...
but I realised that it is normal among teenagers,
they have the tendency to show things off to obtain people's attention. it is very normal, and they are still young too~
I am not sure this among the adults, maybe one day I'll find out ^-^
but there are some kind of teenagers that want to be accepted in the mainstream that they act exactly to what the community want.
please, stay away from the mainstream.
like the term of 'thinking out of the box', I'm re-adapting it.
the mainstream [anything the most of the community likes] is the box that prevent people from going beyond it and be themselves. get out from it, and be your self. everyone have their own personality.
you probably have heard of the "90 kids will remember this", "90 kids are cool", it's not that I want to complain about it [since I heard that I am not from that group of people], no way.
it's just that, I find that only the adult is able to understand the teenagers completely.
I joined this school organisation which is same with prefect, just that prefect is to correct the student's discipline, while this organisation I'm in is to help the students who have problems. problems that they don;t want to share with the elders.
this helpers are suppose to hear their problems, we are not to fully give them solutions, but we have to make them re-think about their problems and make positive out of it.
so, teenagers are more comfortable telling problems to people about their age maybe because of their same level of maturity.
but I notice that only the adults are able to completely understand and help the teenagers.
this is because of the different levels of experience and maturity.
I could say that only maturity is able to withstand immaturity. this is my opinion.
that is why I disagree hearing teenagers saying that their parents doesn't know what they want.
they might not understand what you want, but they sure know what is the best for you. they have been taking care of you since you're still an infant, and they might also add their experience from their own childhood.
but I find that some adults, instead of acting like an adult, they keep saying these teenagers are worthless, this generation is in a big mess and all. they keep complaining instead of thinking ways to correct what is wrong.
some of them might be working hard helping people and have a warm heart. I really hope most of them do.
we should tolerate with each other. teenagers and adults...
anyway, I had always wanted a normal digital camera so that I could capture anything beautiful I've seen.
but I am only able to keep those beautiful scenes in my mind. xD
but it's a good thing right? remembering memories make us humble all the time~
sorry if I've said anything wrong, please correct me and teach me~
Thursday, July 19, 2012
yes, learning to let things go, is a part of loving.
the news was posted on Kamijo World today. yes. apart of being happy about the Vampire Master's birthday, all of the fans are shocked and sad to hear about the news.
we tried to make ourselves relieved by saying possibilities of hacking. for me, I said it might be a birthday prank.
but, an International fan base contacted the office. it is said that the news is true.
so they concluded that the news is supposed to be posted on the 20th, since it is dated to that date.
Versailles will be on hiatus by the end of 2012, after releasing their album.
at first, in confusions, all of us are scared if they're disbanding.
a bit relief that they will only be on hiatus.
sorry that I sounds like freaking out a lot....
it is just that....
I finally learn to love them properly....
I had never expect to see them leaving the industry...
even after seeing them working very hard after Jasmine's death, that just made me have faith in them....
I know that they won't suddenly leave...
maybe they want to have new experience, from outside Versailles, so that they could solidify their dream to dominate the world by greater plans.
I am a bit scared, to think that some of good bands took hiatus but end up disbanding at the end.
but I know, the little faith in me said that they won't be disbanding.
they still haven't fulfilled their goal.
I'm just... shocked... I had never expect this to happen, either hiatus or breaking up.
they have a very bright future. and they almost fulfill their dream too.
but I still agree of them taking some rest.
I notice that after Jasmine's death, they have been working very hard.
I hope that will eventually make me stronger.
they had taught me about beauty and love.
and I has met a lot of people who is also in love with them.
all of them are wonderful and have beautiful heart.
these fans, whether I know them or not, gave me faith, and I believe, their hearts are pure and filled with love.
if you ask me, I had never met a Rose who is very rude and act badly. maybe I haven't met a lot of Roses yet. but all of the Roses I've met have beautiful hearts. all of them are lovely and kind. as if a big family....
anyway, Versailles had taught me another important thing.
which is to let something we love go.
and be mature about it.
we tried to make ourselves relieved by saying possibilities of hacking. for me, I said it might be a birthday prank.
but, an International fan base contacted the office. it is said that the news is true.
so they concluded that the news is supposed to be posted on the 20th, since it is dated to that date.
Versailles will be on hiatus by the end of 2012, after releasing their album.
at first, in confusions, all of us are scared if they're disbanding.
a bit relief that they will only be on hiatus.
sorry that I sounds like freaking out a lot....
it is just that....
I finally learn to love them properly....
I had never expect to see them leaving the industry...
even after seeing them working very hard after Jasmine's death, that just made me have faith in them....
I know that they won't suddenly leave...
maybe they want to have new experience, from outside Versailles, so that they could solidify their dream to dominate the world by greater plans.
I am a bit scared, to think that some of good bands took hiatus but end up disbanding at the end.
but I know, the little faith in me said that they won't be disbanding.
they still haven't fulfilled their goal.
I'm just... shocked... I had never expect this to happen, either hiatus or breaking up.
they have a very bright future. and they almost fulfill their dream too.
but I still agree of them taking some rest.
I notice that after Jasmine's death, they have been working very hard.
I hope that will eventually make me stronger.
they had taught me about beauty and love.
and I has met a lot of people who is also in love with them.
all of them are wonderful and have beautiful heart.
these fans, whether I know them or not, gave me faith, and I believe, their hearts are pure and filled with love.
if you ask me, I had never met a Rose who is very rude and act badly. maybe I haven't met a lot of Roses yet. but all of the Roses I've met have beautiful hearts. all of them are lovely and kind. as if a big family....
anyway, Versailles had taught me another important thing.
which is to let something we love go.
and be mature about it.
Elegant.
lately I am interested towards Elegant influenced by Jasmine You.
I just.... it looks very pretty to me TvT
so, after about more than 2 years being a fan to the visual kei industry, this is the most elegant people I've met and I really wish they could join up and make a project band or have tea party together wearing their elegant costumes TvT
I really like the art they carry~
I didn't bring up the whole Versailles since Kamijo is more to Prince-like or vampire master. Hizaki is more to beautiful lolita, so does Kaya~ while Yuki is like the darkness master, and Masashi is more to dark guardian. Teru, is a forever young prince....he sometimes looks like Jasmine's son and Jasmine sometimes look like Teru's mother xD
It seems to me that Jasmine was like an elegant sorcerer~ I really like his costumes and everything...he really brings it perfectly TvT he inspires me a lot~
and the next one is a mysterious man that I knew last year.
I am startled [am I using the word correctly? xD] by his beauty.
His image is very magnificent and creative. For the first time in my life I said "there exist such people in this world?! ...and... a man?!"
but his costume is more to acceptable, not too theatrical like Jasmine's... just his super elegant makeup.
well, that is the first picture of him that makes me know his existence.
and then, I saw his old picture...
whoaa... I cannot.... but how...
and then, I saw this one...
HOW.
He do have a glittering face. he have beautiful nose too.... since I don't have nice looking nose...
his skin is very fair. I saw a picture of him with light blonde hair and no make up on, as if he have albino problem....
anyway, the last one~
YES. the whole band is elegant.
their costumes are very theatrical, like Jasmine You~
I am very excited knowing them xD
their costumes are very admirable TvT
so far, this is my [Elegant People] list. xD
was suppose to update this post last night, but as I was uploading picture, this happen instead...
but somewhat look beautiful right? XD
I just.... it looks very pretty to me TvT
so, after about more than 2 years being a fan to the visual kei industry, this is the most elegant people I've met and I really wish they could join up and make a project band or have tea party together wearing their elegant costumes TvT
I really like the art they carry~
It seems to me that Jasmine was like an elegant sorcerer~ I really like his costumes and everything...he really brings it perfectly TvT he inspires me a lot~
I am startled [am I using the word correctly? xD] by his beauty.
His image is very magnificent and creative. For the first time in my life I said "there exist such people in this world?! ...and... a man?!"
but his costume is more to acceptable, not too theatrical like Jasmine's... just his super elegant makeup.
well, that is the first picture of him that makes me know his existence.
and then, I saw his old picture...
whoaa... I cannot.... but how...
and then, I saw this one...
HOW.
He do have a glittering face. he have beautiful nose too.... since I don't have nice looking nose...
his skin is very fair. I saw a picture of him with light blonde hair and no make up on, as if he have albino problem....
anyway, the last one~
YES. the whole band is elegant.
their costumes are very theatrical, like Jasmine You~
I am very excited knowing them xD
their costumes are very admirable TvT
so far, this is my [Elegant People] list. xD
was suppose to update this post last night, but as I was uploading picture, this happen instead...
but somewhat look beautiful right? XD
Happy Birthday Kamijo!
yay! Vampire Master's Birthday!
anyway, I forgot to update for the birthday of Hizaki, Yuki, and Masashi....
is it Teru's too? I am sorry x_x
Wednesday, July 18, 2012
Monday, June 25, 2012
5 years of Versailles.
I may no know Jasmine from the time of his life,
but I know very well that he had left true love to this world.
Versailles keep on growing to be my ideal band from time to time,
and now is already 5 years...
I knew them back in 2010, when hearing to Destiny~the Lovers~,
ahh~ that is the song that changes my point of view towards music, towards esthetics, and makes me love history even more~
even that I knew them for a short time,
I've learn a lot from them...
they've taught about love, about real music, about not being a stereotype....
and how look can be deceiving xD
yes, most of all they've taught me about how love can change the world.
even that I know them after Jasmine You's death,
I can tell that they have resuscitated, and became better day by day...
as if sadness gave birth to a better person.
and counting the days I knew them, I know that I tend to love Jasmine more and more even that I had never get the chance to know him when he's still in this world....
Versailles's musics are warm when its about Jasmine, that's how I learn that they love Jasmine and that's how I learn that Jasmine had left them nothing but love and memories.
I heard once that Kamijo once cried of black tears [mascara/eyeliner] when talking about Jasmine.
only by reading the article I feel like crying, I cannot see a man cry because of his friendship.
it just makes me,...want to cry along...with mascara...ok..no...
anyway~ I raised myself by throwing away hatred and making sure I'm not stained by it.
I try to love everyone because I know everyone deserves it.
even the problem maker becomes a problem maker because they're lack of love.
I may not be able to be there and help just everyone who is in need...
but I will keep on trying and work hard for my future so that I could reach my love to those out there.
one might say that they don't need my love, but I don't care!
everyone needs love...they might not need it now but no one ever knows future. xD
p/s ROSE single is suppose to be released early June if I'm not mistaken, but it was delayed, I guess I understand now why it was delayed xD
Sunday, June 10, 2012
Evening Star
I really like TYR, they're folklore band, from Faroese Island.
and this song is very warm~ if you imagine yourself as a viking warrior~
this song is very heart warming, if you imagine yourself as a warrior, who is far from home, this song makes you remind of the warmth of your home, the love you left there.
Faroese Island is a very beautiful place, I am very grateful I met such a majestic folklore band.
one day, if I'm far from home, I will sit alone and hear to this song.
it will make me strong~
Tuesday, June 5, 2012
Monday, June 4, 2012
Thursday, May 31, 2012
Buddy.
let me tell you something,
I had never finish watching Last Exile.
xD
it is a good steampunk anime, I really love steampunk too, but....
but... there's too many episodes... orz
Tuesday, May 29, 2012
Monday, May 28, 2012
I am a good student to none.
but I am eager to learn.
so teach me.
with all the patience, teach me.
teach me the things that I don't know,
and correct me for the mistakes I did.
and do not be scared to tell me anything of what you know.
do not be scared of the possibilities that I might already know it.
just tell me, so that I could teach myself the different points of view.
so teach me.
with all the patience, teach me.
teach me the things that I don't know,
and correct me for the mistakes I did.
and do not be scared to tell me anything of what you know.
do not be scared of the possibilities that I might already know it.
just tell me, so that I could teach myself the different points of view.
Sunday, May 27, 2012
everything that happens is to teach us the meaning of patience.
when you haven't found what you want, have faith and be patience.
and too, be patience of my English xD
and too, be patience of my English xD
the drawing in yesterday
I have been looking through my drawings which was drawn when I'm still in standard 6 and till this day.
I saw a great difference in it...
it was as if, my yesterday is giving me inspiration,....
it makes me question myself,
"who am I when I was drawing this?"
"how am I able to draw this creative and colourful drawings?"
"why I feel like I am left behind by my own yesterday?"
it really makes me wonder, who am I yesterday...
the differences are very great that I felt I might not be able to create such thing in the future.
it might not be too great to other people, but that is my level....
I just feel now that it seems impossible to achieve what I once achieve...
as if inspiration were gift to those who still have immaturity...
it is not showing off but, if you go through it yourself, you will understand what I meant...
it was as if the me in yesterday and the me today is two different person,
that is how great the differences were....
as if we were departed....
I cant even remember things from when I drew it xD
I saw a great difference in it...
it was as if, my yesterday is giving me inspiration,....
it makes me question myself,
"who am I when I was drawing this?"
"how am I able to draw this creative and colourful drawings?"
"why I feel like I am left behind by my own yesterday?"
it really makes me wonder, who am I yesterday...
the differences are very great that I felt I might not be able to create such thing in the future.
it might not be too great to other people, but that is my level....
I just feel now that it seems impossible to achieve what I once achieve...
as if inspiration were gift to those who still have immaturity...
it is not showing off but, if you go through it yourself, you will understand what I meant...
it was as if the me in yesterday and the me today is two different person,
that is how great the differences were....
as if we were departed....
I cant even remember things from when I drew it xD
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